Still Learning

I decided to start writing about this as a way of creating accountability for myself and also, maybe, providing some insight and inspiration to others. As I've gotten older I have felt compelled to do something meaningful... maybe helpful to others. Before you think I'm about to get all philanthropic on you let me explain what I mean. I am not the charity sort.. donating my time at homeless shelters or other venues really isn't me. I am not the type to quit my job and start a non-profit business or open a bed and breakfast. nope. I like working for a big corporate company. I like knowing what I get paid every two weeks. I get satisfaction from my job. So when I say I want to do something meaningful I'm thinking on a much smaller level. I want to work through my issues in life and help others through my experiences. But I'm no life coach...in fact I probably need one. I am going to be my own coach because I know I can. I know for a fact that I can do anything I want as soon as I decide what I want...which is where I get distracted.

My 40th birthday is approaching in 1.5 years. I am okay with the idea of being 40 (what are my choices, really) however I am not okay with some aspects of my life...namely my constant battle with my weight and my semi-compulsive spending habits. I hope to be walking this planet for many more years so I have decided that I am going to tackle those two items and fix them... for good. I am going to weed through all the advice and books and topics out there and apply the ones that work for me. And if my experience can help someone else...even better. If people read this and ask me questions, there is my accountability. I'm far less willing to give up on myself when I know people are watching. You get your motivation your way...I'll get mine my way.

I am going to be careful to avoid two things that drive me crazy... hypocrisy and shoving my views down other people's throats. My disclaimer is that all the views expressed here are purely and exclusively mine... I will not use the names or situations of my friends to protect the privacy of others (unless given express permission) and I will be very sarcastic, sometimes bitter, and hopefully somewhat amusing at times.

I am not going to commit to writing every day (I heard that is what good writers do...but I never claimed to be a good writer!) I do commit to updating regularly and being honest with my feelings and struggles. I am letting people into my sometimes private and usually guarded mind which is both challenging and exhilarating and I hope you will be kind.

So here are the goals...
1. Change my love-hate relationship with food and learn to live healthy in a non-obsessive way
2. Pay off debt and utilize "real-income living"

I hope you'll follow along with me.